This may not come as ground breaking insights but I need to write it down in order to organize my thoughts. After my latest spiritual experiences I fell (and felt) a little out of purpose. Not in a desperate way as it would before, but more with a sense of where my place is and not wanting to take part in any organization schemes, Galactic or otherwise.
The multidimensional perception of consciousness already brought me to the realization there is no polarity. We are all actors cast in the roles of our lives, incarnation after incarnation, avatars to larger consciousness at play, alternating one “side” or the other (there really is no sides but it makes sense from our perspective). This planet is little more than a stage to solve and enact dimensional and galactic problematics of various conscious beings and allow them to ascend (remember maze runner?).
What is really ascension and why does it matter? Put simply, it’s the goal of each levels of the reality game. Imagine the conscious universe (including this dimension and every other) as a giant computer operated system. God consciousness being the programmer, “sacred” geometry and fractal patterns being the code language, archangels/aeoning beings being frameworks in which realities are created, higher dimensional realms being programs/applications and our lower realms being the files that are being worked on. (E.g. Texts or image files). The god/programmer is simply trying to complete as many work files as possible and integrate them in its vast database.
In this perspective, every experience matters. Whatever we do, is of equal value in God’s eye. The goal is to solve different puzzles by enacting different dynamics and ultimately bringing harmony and coherence to systems. Each system is identified as a specific frequency bands (think radio station) but are also completely interdependent and acting together in solving a larger picture (think fractal). Time doesn’t exist either, only layered sequences of information warping and folding onto themselves in loops like weird circular formulas, until we figure how to debug it.
How does this translate to our human experience and how do we find “purpose”? Because let’s be honest: to come to realization that nothing we perceive is real, that we live in a constructed matrix where there is actually no moral sense of right of wrong and there is no way to escape it not even death (because dying is no exit, only a change of state and anything left “undone” has to be repeated), is not especially hearth warming.
Since once we awake within this matrix we are not going anywhere (well we go tons of places with our multidimensional perception for a while but the point is that ultimately we still have to operate in these bodies), we still need to cope with the feeling of being trapped in physicality. For some, after major spiritual awakening, existential nihilism can be crushing and even down right maddening.
The idea is bring about this harmony and coherence to everyday life. Because when we bring harmony to “the reality system”, we actually find harmony within (and vice versa). If we look into Buddhist philosophy, we find the same truth: there is no sense of good or bad, just a core desire to end suffering. Because real or not, suffering (and pain) is the one constant of physical incarnation, especially for human beings.
If we consider reality to be constructed as a spiral (hello Fibonacci) the way we go about problem solving starts to make sense. Weather is on the small scale of day to day life or the large scale of reincarnation, have you ever noticed how when we think we’ve “solved” something in our lives it suddenly comes back as a sort of “test”, until it’s definitely integrated? Same goes around of every layer of existence and in this spiral of evolution we works out blocks and karma (Saṅkhāra) as individuals, as a specie, as a planet, etc.
The other constant is change. In the construct of this matrix we are in, no matter the scale we witness constant flow and movement, graciously unfolding patterns within patterns (look at the dance of galaxies). When we deeply understand that nothing is ever static and nothing is “real”, the notion of “wanting” is transformed. We therefore learn that there is no point in holding on to anything, whether its objects, people or situations. We circle back to the Buddhist concept of desire and attachment. In order to attain true happiness (harmony) we ought to free of both.
When we see things in this fractal way, we understand we are indeed created in God’s image. Therefore, as its infinite creative power dwells inside of me, I am more than ever interested in spanning little programs of my own to alter reality and make this world a better place to exist in. Here’s how:
Many studies in recent years show how thought patterns and especially emotions bring harmony to a system (for instance Masaru Emoto experiment). Vibrations also have this property: a rhythmic breathing brings about cardiac coherence and in turn a sense of calm inner peace, tribal drumming will synchronize brainwaves and bring about a state of trance, etc. A coherent system (with a steady vibration) will harmonize its surrounding in a reciprocal manner. This bring my second point that the single and most powerful way we can impact the world is by first experiencing true harmony and coherence within ourselves. By looking inside and observe our own state of discordance, unhappiness and chaos, we soon start to feel empathy for every other being suffering as well. After a while we begin to feel compassionate to everyone (Mettā), even those who harmed us and are hurting the world as a result of their own unhappiness. This deep realization is the true purpose of meditation and contemplation. Love is ultimate vibrational coherence and compassion is love in action.
Another good point is to stop worrying about everyone else’s process and how spiritual or not they are and instead concentrate to create a space of acceptance free of judgement to let people be what they are, walk their own path and work their own process. The truth is that we cannot fix others. Individual ascension (or collectively working at ascending individually) is the way I am endorsing now in a world resisting transition to a more feminine, organic paradigm. It just seems like the logical and most effective way to go at it at least for the time being.
Ultimately we, as individuals, have the ultimate power of playing out this reality by making choices within ourselves. Worrying and fighting is actually very counterproductive in the desire to play out a harmonious (i am not going to say positive) outcome in coherently solving this reality puzzle and moving up to the next (ascending). Loving, accepting, laughing and be happy are the only things that actually make a difference. So I am going to repeat it once more: nothing matters in this life more than the quest of deep self-knowing because understanding oneself is understanding the universe. Then changing yourself is changing the world.